30 January 2012

jump start

jeez, nearly three weeks on, and still no new post...
not that there isn't anything happening here, but i suppose it's been mainly very personal stuff, things i don't feel a need to write down on this blog (where as i've been having an emotional pour out on my dutch one...)

Januari has been an eye opener, in many ways.
for one - i've figured out that i'm finding it very hard to let go of something special to me... I feel i'm clutching at straws, but there's nothing much to go on anymore... and i'm stubbornly denying this... Scared of the results, of the reaction... Maybe i'm even scared that something nice might happen... Maybe i deep down don't feel i deserve it... Maybe...

Maybe i should just jump, and see where the stream of life will take me...
Maybe, soon...

the beatles
daring to jump

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